This is the chorus to a very old hymn that someone just brought to mind today:
Monthly Archives: October 2015
I’m trying to get a grasp on things, but I find myself grasping for things that are falling out of my reach. I’m stuck in a job where my full potential is not used, and the people who have any say over my job could care less. They run their business, and that’s all that matters to them. People in this workplace could be totally miserable, and it wouldn’t matter. If our well-being does mean something to them, they have a very strange way of showing it.
I need out. How do I do this? I don’t know. I’m slowly making a plan and will exit when everything works out. When will this happen? I don’t know. I can’t even see my hand in front of my face because the proverbial fog is so thick.
And then I think of a scripture that says, “My ways are not your ways,” and I know that God loves me more than anything and wants nothing but the best for me. At this point in my life when the fog seems the thickest, and I can’t see what the next step is supposed to be, He’s so sweetly saying, “Hold on. I’ve got you. I’ve got this. I care for you. I want nothing but good things for you. I’m growing you. I’m stretching you and you will become the person you need to be. Just rest in me and find joy. Find joy in Me. Not in others who will undoubtedly fail you, but in Me.”
And while I write these words, I’m moved and pleased that I’m actually turning to these positive thoughts. Thankful that my heart has turned in that direction. However, something will happen tomorrow, and again I will feel unappreciated and used and will need to be reminded again that God’s got me.
The flesh and the Spirit wrestle continually. Thank God the Spirit has no intention of losing the daily battle within. For that I am thankful.
In honor of someone whose voice has won over several folks throughout decades, and whose kindness seems to emanate on screen and even in personal interviews – I write this blog post about her today. This lady was someone who was a very huge part of my childhood. She entered into my world when I was a mere 7 years old. On a Sunday in March for several years, I found myself in front of the television watching the classic musical that became my favorite of all time. It was the year 1988 when I saved up all of my babysitting money and bought this movie; a double VCR tape set. I watched it so much that it skips at the beginning and sounds awful; but oh, it’s such a treasure. My family endured many days as they would hear me practicing many of her songs with all of my heart (that part of my life helps me understand my daughter’s passion for performance today; and Jainie – thank you for enduring the most as you could hear me best on the other side of the wall in your room). From Broadway to love songs to Christmas music, I would come to memorize music that is still a part of my thoughts today. Although I no longer own a cassette player, I still own a 1987 cassette tape with some real gems on it. I’m playing her music on iTunes as I write this. I’ve been thrown back in time.
In my life, way back when, I treasured her as Maria, Mary, Eliza and even Gillian (opposite Jack Lemmon in an 80s movie that I watched so much that I’m sure if I had asked, the VCR rental store would have given that tape to me). People from my childhood, my undergrad days, and even Ohio days, know the significance of today. Julie Andrews, Happy 80th Birthday, dear lady. If you only knew the impact you made on the life of this kid from Indiana. You will always be a treasure.